A Constant Migraine

I have had this migraine in my head behind my eyes and on the sides of my temples for days now. I am starting to wonder if it will ever go away. My social life and everything with Devin has never been better. I have gotten into three great colleges so far. And I'm excited about leaving this whole mess at home behind when I go there.

But behind closed doors everything is a mess at home. This divorce between my parents is just getting worst and worst. It's turning my dad into a different person. And all they ever do is fight since they are staying in the same house. I really just want it to be done with but I know it isn't that easy. Money is so tight because they both make so little. I find it hard to give them my dance bills so I can pay for my costumes.

My dad is trying to hurt my mom by turning off the oil account or electricity. And I have seriously begun to hate him because of how selfish he is acting. He is hurting my brother and I too. I'm just so sick and tired of being told how I will understand everything one day when I'm older. I don't need to be 40 years old to understand when my dad is acting immature and selfish and like a jerk.

Today he approached me saying since my car needs to be used more that he is going to start using it. And I got offensive, saying I love how I got a choice on who used my car. He said how the car was in his name and how he paid for insurance. but my mom pays for my gas... not him. Seems pretty fair to me. And now I need to let him know when I'm using my car? How about he lets me know when he's using it? It's my flipping car! Not his. And since Shane is now done with Hockey my mom won't be staying at school for me so I will have to take mine there every day or so now. And last summer when he was using it he would fill up the gas to an 1/8 a tank. Gee thanks for getting me to dance class and back. Glad you paid for that.

And the best part is, when I told him no I didn't want to share it with him. He threatened me! He threatened to stop paying for insurance and then he threatened he'd sell the house because he can't afford everything. Just this morning he threatened to turn the electricity off on us because I accidently forgot to turn off the TV. I just can't handle him anymore. And yet, I don't know what to do. And he doesn't want my mom involved with the car problem but I think it involves her too.